feelings show.

I can't even begin to explain to you how many feelings have ran through my mind in the past 4 days. This weekend has opened my eyes to a lot of things. Not only faults within myself, which I've been notified that I have a lot of, but faults concerning others as well.

I guess this means it's time for a change.

Today I will begin my long journey of house hunting once again.

ooooo i never meant to brag, but I got him where i want him nowww.

I love bowling. I love friends. I love my hub.

I gots a new phone this weekend! it's about time, my RAZR was a piece of CRAP! so i gots a sidekick and I loves it! its so much more fun.

Classes start today, yippie!...not.

see ya later kats!

you have stolen my heart.

TGIF!!

I have dinner with the in-laws tonight and hurray that I don't have to go anywhere else. I have been such a bum this whole week. Monday I start back to school, so hopefully everything will go well and my schedule will work with everything else that I have going on.

alright, back to work, then going home early!!

here kitty kitty

She's here! little Olive! And she as adorable as ever. I had the day off today so I cleaned and relaxed at home. My mom came over and we just talked and enjoyed each others company. It's been nice, I love days like this. So I'm off to do some laundry and dishes...it my day to be a little suzie-homemaker!

peess owtt.

jenn & olive.

oh the madness.

I hate waking up early. This morning my alarm went off and I almost went back to sleep thinking it was the weekend, then I remembered that I have to pick up Olive today which means it must be Tuesday.

I've felt aweful ever since last night when Jake came home and told me that his parent were upset that we had gotten a cat. (we rent our house from them). I had asked them at one point and they were completely opposed. However, to be honest, when we adopted her I wasn't thinking about how they would feel, they didn't even cross my mind. Aweful I know, but I realize that we went about it all wrong. I just don't have the heart to abandon her. Therefore I'm not giving her up unless I absolutely HAVE to. Selfish and immature I know, but I just dont wanna! Anyways,I guess I just figured that thye would lighten up a little, since they said the same thing about a dog, but we ended up getting one anyways and they didn't seem to mind. AH, I'm such a bad person.

I have to change the subject. So I'm at work, I have to work on some invites for Tasha's baby shower and I have to notarize and pull a permit for the city of Safety Harbor. What a glorious day! Anyways, I might come back and recap a little later...but for now I'm off!


peess owt.

Jenn

EDIT::

Hurray I'm back! So the Jakester brought me lunch, Firehouse subs to be exact and it was SPLENDIFOROUS!! and I got to see my babe, that was a plus haha. Now, I have to drop off some samples in largo and go to the bank...then ocme back and hopefully by then it will be almost time to leave to go pick up Olive!! I'm so excited! (can't you tell??!) I'm supposed to go to the zoo tomorrow but I don't think we are anymore, but I still have the day off to spend at home and do some stuff around the house, so it will be nice. and don't forget the time I will be spending with my new little addition! She's going to be drugged up tonight so it will be fun holding her...AH... alright I think I'm a little too hyper to be doing this right now, so I'm off to run my errands...

jenn jenn bo benn banana fanana fo fennn....

my, oh my.

So yesterday we adopted a 3 month, 20 day old kitten. She's a beautiful Siamese, cream colored with chocolate accents.

It's funny how God works...now think about it, really. Last week I had called every SPCA and humane society from clearwater to pasco looking for a siamese kitten. Some can cost hundreds of dollars, be we wanted to adopt one who didn't have a home not only because it's cheaper but because of various other reasons. anyways, almost everyday last week I called and of course, it's the typical "I'm sorry, you'll have to keep checking" response. I hadn't let myself get too excited for this very reason.

Jacob knows how bad I've wanted a cat. My whole life, I have LOVED them and grown up with them, and I don't know what it is. Maybe it's their calm demeanor, or their cute little faces! I just find them one of God's wonderful creations that I'm grateful to be able to experience without all the allergic reactions haha.

Anyways, I had mentioned to Jake about going to the SPCA sunday after church just to check, you never know. Once again, I didn't get my hopes up because the more valuable ones are the first to go... Either way we went. As I searched each kennel for a bud of hope I made sure to give each kitten a lookover because they are all just so adorable with their paws reaching out to touch you as you walk by. There are two rooms with two huge kennel chambers in each, as I got to the last kennels in the last room, I walk around to the other side and on the bottom were three kittens one being a beautiful cream colored siamese. I checked its papers to make sure it was a female and voila! She was perfect! We took her in a room to hold her and she was as calm as can be! We noticed her little tail looked as if it had gotten caught in something, oh but it's so cute. We signed the papers and pick her up tomorrow after 4. I am so excited, I can hardly wait. I hate that feeling, your just sitting and waiting for time to pass by. Point of the story being, the Lord found a way, where I thought there was no way. Some may not think thnk this is a big deal, but trust me, it is! Amazing, simply amazing. This just confirms that the Lord answers prayer.

that's life.

It's hard nowadays to think back on the friends that you once had and know that both the person that you've become and the person that they've become are opposite. Have you ever felt like you no longer shared common ground with a person that once was unimaginably close to you? Not that it's a bad thing, everyone grows up a little, changes a little, becomes who they want to be and lives their life. It's just crazy to think back on the plans that you'd made and promises that weren't kept, because of convenient purposes. Again, not a bad thing, just different than you thought. Sometimes I wish things were different, then other times I just thank God that we're still in contact and I'm happy if they're happy.

I'm also happy with my friends at this point, grateful that I have people to turn to, talk to, and share time with and a husband that encourages me to have that social freedom. I'm also grateful for the life that I've been granted. Everyone has there problems, some are out of their control, but me, I can honestly say that I have been blessed. Don't get me wrong, I have my share of issues, but they could definitely be worse. After talking to others, I feel bad for even remotely thinking that my life isn't as great as I want it to be or as it should or could be. My problems are nothing compared to some and I pray that God would grant them the diligence to seek true happiness although they've been mentally/physically/verbally tattered. God can change lives, seek him to help you through your rough times.

well, I guess that's it for now. Sometimes I have all these thoughts running through my head, but I can't put them into words that another would undestand fully. So try to see things from my side of the world. Thanks friends, all of you, whether it was years ago or now, I appreciate you for being apart of my life.

pees owt.

♥ jenn jenn

boredom, what an aweful feeling.

It's 8:14 a.m.
I'm at work
My eyes are droopy
and I miss my hub.

today is going to be just peachy, I can already feel it.

Oh, it is love!

My husband is the most amazing person. Words really can't express the way I feel for him, however I'm still going to try and muster up some dialogue that might make you think otherwise. Last night I got home from a wonderful night with some friends, to my hubby sitting in his little video lounge chair stairing up at my with the face that screams "come and hug me!" So I dropped my baggage on the kitchen floor and turned around to give him a great big "I love you" hug. No biggy, right? Well, we went to bed because we were both fairly exhausted, him from his guys night watching 300, me from my wonderful night of talking with women I felt that I have know my whole life, even if it's only been a week or less... and boneless buffalo wings which were great by the way.

As soon as I laid my body down, jake crawls in beside me and snuggles up real close as if to be smelling my skin haha. sounds wierd but I love it when he does that! Either way, the whole night he was just reminding me of how much he loved me, how he had missed me so much that day, and is so glad that he is married to me. It's ironic, because the past few weeks I had been thinking that I was telling him that I loved him a lot, not too much, it was just that I didn't feel that I was giving him the chance to say it to me first without having to just say it because I said it, you know? anyways, I fell asleep in his arms, and woke up in the middle of the night because I wasn't feeling good. of course, my superman runs to the kitchen to fix me some airborne, making sure that I don't get sick, and he gives me one of his Cepacol throat lozenges. Again, reminding me before I doze off that he loves me 'so much'...

I love that feeling, waking up to his morning moan, "mmmmm" and that grin of his. I love to watch him when he sleeps, so peaceful and handsome. It makes me want to squeeze him! Ok so now I'm just rambling, but my point is, that I love my husband and I couldn't have asked for any more. He's an amazing best friend and I'm glad that the Lord but us in each other's lives at this time. I hope for anyone that you find that one person that exceeds anything that you ever wanted...

I love my jakey poooo.

EDIT:

Oh and I completely forgot to mention this. On tuesday I came home and there was a flower pot on the kitchen table. Jake had surprised me and bought me a flower to grow! If you don't already know, maintaining a flower is on my "things to do before I die" list. I was also wanting to paint my own clay pot(s) for my future garden =]. He told me he was trying to help me slowly but surely accomplish my list...i love this man to death.

XXX

This weekend was fun, I found myself a new friend. She's pretty awesome.

Anyhow, I'm going to joann fabrics today to by supplies to customize a new template for my mug. that's about it, and I'm making dinner. word.

Alright, back to work, back to work. Maybe I'll stop by and spill my guts a little later.

two year and a million memories.

Yesterday was Anderson's 2nd birthday. Jake and I kept debating on whether he was 2 or 3 because we oculdn't figure it out...turns out he is 2. We thought that he had already been born when we had started dating and we have been dating for over 2 1/2 years, therefore 3 would be the logical age. but no. We got him this cute little sand/water table to play with...it looked like fun, I'm sure I'll have my time with it haha.

Jackson was being such a trooper, I swear I think I took a hundred pictures of him, of them all I thought this one was pretty cute. He was wearing the sleeves that had been cut off of his daddy's shirt. He turns 5 in December. I can't BELIEVE how fast time flies by, I can remember being at the hospital when he was born! He's such a little man now, he's so smart and witty. We have him for the weekend so right now we're watching Shrek 2...after that, the Incredibles.

Alright, I guess that's it for now, I'm feeling a little pre-occupied at the moment, so...

peeess owt.